What's really Important?

Today has been one of those where you just catch yourself sort of spacing, not quite focused. Maybe only for a second or two and then you snap out of it, continue through your day, check things off that list and function as normal. Sometimes it is lack of sleep, contemplation, frustration, or just an off day. I haven't had to many of these lately, but then-bam-here it is. It took me literally from this morning until tonight to figure out why it was "one" of those days. I had this overwhelming feeling all day and I couldn't place it, not a weight, but just a sense. I pushed it aside and functioned as needed, came home and played with my son, enjoyed some time with my wife and relaxed. The feeling was gone. Disappeared somehow, then I had the realization. Everything inside of me was striving to be with my family, even if it was just "around" them, that is what seemed off today to me. As I lay in bed clicking around the Internet and feeling content I thought more about this feeling today and with a slight glance over to my wife sleeping next to me-bam-it was clear as day. I am blessed, I am so very blessed and I need to thank God for what he has given me and done in my life. A beautiful wife that I can confide in and love, someone to laugh with, play jokes on (ha), and just a special person with such an immense passion for life to just be "around" and spend my days with. A son that entered this world as a surprise and has remained as a gift. He has the ability to make me laugh hard and smile big with his crazy fun antics, to see him grow up before my own eyes is...well, nuts. This feeling of spaciness disappeared when I was home because they are what I was missing, they are what didn't feel quite right earlier, because I was striving to be around them, in their company and enjoying their presence. It is easy to get distracted in our lives filled to the brim with stuff. This stuff can help us function, learn, pay the bills or get frustrated. Most of the time it is essential to our survival but not to our fruition as a person. This stuff can't fulfill, heal, protect or even satisfy. Somehow though this stuff can start to fog up our true priorities in life, what really matters and fulfills. For me it is God, a true relationship with Him, based not on any denomination, religion or doctrine, but a real back and forth, sometimes upsetting, sometimes confusing experience where I can get mad and I can get excited. I can thank Him first for the grace his has given me in life, as I am not perfect nor will I ever be, and second for the people he has placed around me. Whether it be a family that astonishes me in our passions, goals, and accomplishments or a workplace where they have such a desire to see people find Jesus and everyone is continually growing, changing and adapting in new ways to help people connect to God and each other. In my life I have tried to grasp onto this fact and at times just try to remember it. When those days come where everything around me seems to falling and I can't figure out why, I just don't try. It may take me an entire day to remember what I need to, but I eventually look to God and the scriptures for reassurance, not always relief, but at least some support.